no direction

i haven't been very serious about this, been very inconsistent. but i just saw a tweet about blogging being useful, so i'm coming back.

hopefully, i will post stuff weekly, to keep the juices flowing. And maybe, just maybe, this might help someone!

i want to start my own business. not sure what or how, but i would like tha danger, fear, struggle and reward of running my own business. yet, i have a family, who relies on me, so i can't just drop everything

also, i don't have a specific plan, which is essential to making a business.

i have many reasons for wanting to start one

to rely only on God, to be able to give something to my children, to help people, to hire black people and hopefully make them independent financially. 

the hardest part is being focused. i'm way too interested in so many things that i have trouble focusing. sometimes, it feels like it would be better if i could just change my brain. but i can't, so we gotta work with what we got.

hopefully one day i will figure out how to be focused, but until then, i'm just going to keep trying to do what i can to survive